I don't know what Your plan is, or what the purpose of all I have been through this year serves...but I trust You.
I keep coming to the brink of disaster, only to feel your loving touch on my life once again...EVERY TIME. You save me. You stand me back on my feet. And, each time I fall back down, I cry to You and You come to my rescue.
I know I am dirty. I know that I am unclean. I know that I don't deserve the wonderful Grace that You keep giving me, but I also know that I have been purified, sanctified and made whole by Your Son who died on the cross to pay for all of my sins.
I try so hard, Lord. I work so hard. Yet, You keep reminding me that no matter how much I do or what I want, You will have Your way, and that way is to Bless me, in spite of my failures and wrong-doings, because - well - simply because You chose me to be Your child.
When I fall down, I do what all young children do, I cry. I get angry. I throw fits. Then, You pick me up and I forget all about what hurt me and I smile and hug the One who holds me.
You are my Loving, Merciful, Strong, Rich Father who wants nothing more than to see me smile. You make me want to please You more. And, I know I can never do enough or be enough.
Thank You for, once again, coming to my rescue. Thank You for teaching me responsibility. Thank You for teaching me gratitude.
I would ask You to help me obtain a position that I no longer have the need to call out to You for help, but then I would miss out on all the times that Your help has filled my heart with Joy!
Lead me. Guide me. Show me the way; and, whatever Your purpose is for me, Lord, let me be in it.
In Jesus' Holy Name,